Recently into chinese songs...
This sentence from A-Lin's 给我一个理由忘记 gave me some heartaches because it reminded me so much of my grandma.
Dreamt about her yesterday night again. She was on a bed with white bedsheets in a foreign room and she was in pain. I was helpless and I asked her in hokkien, ah ma where pain? where pain? She told me her back ached. I realized it could be due to the bed. I was furious and complained about how hard it was and how much pain it was causing her. The sad thing about the dream was that ah ma was in an old folks' home. Kind of hated myself in the dream.
Woke up with that usual sense of loss -when you were dreaming about that person and you wake up thinking about that person, and then reality hits you hard and you realize... she's gone.
Hate it that I didn't grow up fast enough to earn enough to bring both my grandmothers overseas to make them happy. This will always be, one of my greatest regrets in life.
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