It's a single child Sunday.
And any single child day at home without my brother makes me so

immensely
deeply
greatly
sincerely

thankful that I have my brother in my life.

Kor I'm also sorry I left you with two years of single child weekdays when I was away in CAPT.

Practise what you preach

M likes to advocate herself as someone who doesn't gamble.
She would say how "I don't gamble what" all the time.

I hate it how she'll whisper in hushed voices about lottery when she speaks to her siblings. Just so we wouldn't hear (of course we can anyway). Or religiously look out for the lottery every Wed/Sat/Sun. And the part I dislike the most is how she will buy numbers related to me. For e.g. like how my birthday is coming so there are digits to buy like 1802 or 2294 or whatever. I wouldn't want to be part of the reason why she's losing money and it sucks because it's her choice to buy and I don't have any say.

It's very, very roll-eyes-worthy.

I know I'm a bad daughter to say this, but the point is...
I know I was never really a good one to begin with anyway.

Ah and happy vday everyone, especially my friends and my bro. Love you all always.

CNY 2016

Just got home from a very last minute blackjack session at cousin's place. That concludes my CNY holidays this year! :)

As usual, had the awkward meetup with dad's side. Aunties are really nice to talk to, cousins are too many and too un-close haha but I'm glad we are all grown up and mature enough to smile and wave and do some small updates on our lives. Plus girl cousins actually initiated and asked me to take a girl-picture tgt hehe so nice la they all. And Ah ma 你真的很会生，一生就生十个 it is crazy leh parenting for just one or two children is tough enough I cannot imagine being a single mum of TEN CHILDREN I cannot. On a less happy note, CNY is yet another reminder that ah ma has left. I was thinking about it at night and I got a bit emo because I pictured all the scenarios of 'if ah ma was here'. If ah ma was here, she'll be eating with me. If ah ma was here, she'll be playing blackjack tgt and be super cute. I love it when my ah ma gambles during cny LOL doesn't sound right. But anyway that's because she will be so vibrant and alert and happy like a shining star radiating joy all around hahaha. Oh well, life. Moves on :)

I don't meet my 姑姑s that often because dad didn't have a habit of bringing us tgt with his family since young. As we grew up we just met them twice a year haha once during cny and once during christmas. But still they are very nice to talk to, haha much less judgy and more funny than the other side. In comparison... the other side just asks me to eat 24/7 but I stood up for myself and made my point! YES I DID IT. I just had to be patient and repeat myself a few times but yes I got my point across :>

As I grow up I realized I'm caring less and less for CNY. It used to be such a huge big thing for me, but now it's just... like-that-lor. Why ah. On a more positive note... it was a good break and I like catching up with cousins again before we get busy busy this year. At least I get to meet them tmr and Friday again!

Some pictures to brighten up this place!

My 小姑! Everyone always says how alike we are ever since I was born hehe, and every single time we meet she will ask for a picture. I'm proud of 小姑 and the things she do, she is a superwoman

Two of my closest cousins! <3

Cross fingers and hope everyone I love have an amazing year ahead may life surprise us all in many happy ways :) 

Here we come!!!

Clarity

I'm finally blogging more because the I discovered how to link blogspot to my usual account haha. It used to be another old account and I'll always be lazy whenever they ask me to type user/password. Now I'm just auto in here!

Anyway.

Hohoho 真的放下了。

Saw so much clarity after that, I'm gna remember HH's wise words for sure :)

Let's all be kickass awesome in this brand new year!

While social media is often slammed for too much of its negatives, I love all the posts/quotes from instagram and facebook because they make me think. Sometimes when we are too busy with this rat race we don't make time to think.

Today Instagram taught me:

Stop waiting
for Friday,
for summer,
for someone to fall in love with you,
for life.

Happiness is N O W.

Woke up feeling:

I AM GOING TO BE FUCKING AWESOME.

LOL. Sorry for the vulgarity but sometimes the f word just brings across a whole lot more emphasis. I'm happy for feeling this way, and hi hh I know you'll be reading this let's wake up always feeling this, anw you are already awesome. But yep just in case sometimes we forget, we got to remind ourselves.

Today is a day of doing nothing haha.

I'm currently looking very pathetic because watching all the old X-factor videos make me cry every. single. time. Really such inspiring people chasing after their dreams. Sometimes thinking about bigger issues makes me forget all the trivial small things I lamely get upset about.

Ah and today is a day of music. Been a long while. I'm listening to Let It Go now. What are you thinking about? The snow queen ice cartoon movie (omg I legit forgot the title I tried very hard to recall) soundtrack righttt. Haha tbh I haven't exactly listened to the whole full song of that before. But nah I'm listening to Let It Go by James Bay and it's nice :)

Tryna push this problem up the hill
when it's too heavy to hold
I think now it's time
to let it slide
So come on
Let it go.

Life is a very mysterious thing. People are equally mysterious too.

At the end of the day I got to remind myself my usual chinese words,
开心就好。

就好。