Last night mum went to bed at 11ish and she suddenly woke at 1am feeling heart pains/tightness and tried to vomit out the discomfort. I was helpless idk what can I do so I was just there.

It's sad that our relationship is so formal, it's sad how I cannot stand her love language. It's just service and service and service. Even when she's feeling unwell she doesn't want me around but in bed and sleeping o so sweetly- you tell me who in the right mind will do that la. Come on la, even if it's just an acquaintance I still wna be there for them when they are in pain right?? But you reject that and you serve us like we are royalty. You only dine when we are around. You insist that I eat so much but you don't do the same (Hence the pain because I think she ate antibiotics from the doc on a quite empty stomach)

When will this ever end. Don't think it ever will, it's gna be like this all the way till...
Just all the way.