Feel the typical sore throat + runny nose combo coming. Woke at 5 to eat pipagao and drink hot water but it didn't really help that much so I woke again at 6.30! I figured why did I crash at early 10+ last night- bro told me to eat TWO of that powerful yellow mini pill for runny nose which cause lots of doziness but the usual dosage is ONE hahahaha both of us didn't know so we just whacked as two.

It's yet another chilly Tuesday! :-)

• Caught Fantastic Beasts with xin last week woah it was fantastic Harry Potter really never ever disappoints. 
• Went to Curious Palette with colleagues for brunch yesterday! Food was good but expensive but good but still expensive so I rather go to JB for the same food at lower price haha
• Speaking of that... JB plans coming right up in mid-Dec, exchange rate is amazing now at 3.09 there was a LONG queue at paya money exchange yesterday haha I'm gna exchange mine next week :>
• Nice Day plans with HH too yippee 
• Clairebear is coming back next month omg

END OF FINALS HELLYEAH!!! I'm delighted about the end of finals even though I am not even a student anymore because end of finals = friends in their human bodies. I usually just see friends in their virtual forms online so YAY I GET MY FRIENDS BACK NOW. Starting off with Hua & Tze tomorrow :>

Yesterday I opened up to my colleagues about my past haha I thought they will know eventually but not thaaaat soon but okay now they know. And talking about some mini details still makes me a bit emotional and choked up I was so worried I'll tear up but I held it in :D There are just some things in life that we forgive but never forget. It sticks in your head like gum on hair and no matter how young you were back then it just stays inside the head. Weird and sad how we usually tend to remember the most painful things, human nature shi bu shi? I remember... even the smallest shit. Like when I jumped and someone said there's an earthquake. And how students from KidsREAD called me fat but I kept quiet. Thinking back, to educate better, actually I should have told him "that's not very nice to say" etc but I was just too cui and a bit sad inside then to tell him anything. 17 years old then. 

I was fat, but very happy :-) I have the most amazing bunch of friends that sometimes in life at random moments I feel this whole gush of thankfulness, how blessed am I to have these people in my life. Growing up means less opportunities to do crazy shit, especially when career creeps in. I'm sad about this fact but glad I actually did some crazy shit back in the younger days. It's like keeping a library of my own, shelf by shelf I'll classify them and keep them all in my own space :-)

My nephew wants to go to the US and I told him jie has no money you need to wait long long first hahaha then he gave me the most adorable reply. Why did you use all your money on Pooh?! Hahahaha because I bought him a Pooh last time and he knew that Pooh bear needed $$ to get. So therefore US ticket = Pooh bear from Isetan hahaha children are really are the cutest people ever. Borrowed 6 cute story books from Whitesands as well for work and A Long Way Home (OMG YES I AM BORROWING A BOOK TO READ WTS) hahaha it's the book for the movie Lion I'm contemplating to watch with the bro. Trailer looks super T.T very cry-able. 

On another random note I know it's damn joke but... I'm interested in performing for Guitar's anniversary concert HAHAHA I feel like getting a new goal for myself :> Let's see how things goes! 

Back to RM!

Work never ends. But I'm not complaining. I spent my 'weekends' researching on developmental games for my toddlers and I'm gng to try out spin the wheel game this week muahahaha excited. Have already printed out all the wheels (alphabet/ colours/ sea creatures etc) and I'm gng to do a DIY wheel with a pin and a cork board *cross fingers* that the kiddos like it! Esp when some of my Year 2s come early for class, kill some time and play with it haha.

I've been nodding off at 9+ almost every night this is so embarrassing like a baby's sleeping timing but I'll ren until 10/11 hahaha

It's a Wednesday morning now.
Heavy rain outside.
Unfortunately father is up.
Missing Grandma(s) yesterday, both of them. Everytime I hear Photograph by Ed Sheeran I'll think of them but yesterday the feels were damn strong I teared a little and changed song quickly. We keep this love in a photograph~ I keep both of them in my wallet close to me wherever I go yay
Sometimes I'll feel guilty to Ah Ma and wonder if she can see us from wherever she is now. See how screwed up my r/s is with her son and I'll feel bad about it. Sometimes I wonder what's in my father's mind too. What was he thinking about when bro and I were born? Or when we were growing up? Why don't he join in and play a part? What does family mean to him? And the more I think about it the more hatred I'll accumulate inside myself which is damn unhealthy so I need to distract myself. One of the most hurtful things in the world you can ever say to your child is the fact that you didn't want them to be born. You just do it for society's sake/ for fun's sake and wash your hands off everything after you contribute your freaking sperm. Unfortunately I'm not that kind a person so I bear grudges and there are some things that sticks like gum in my head, like what he says to me I can't erase them no matter whatever logic I try to tweak them around...

And then I wonder if words are just empty words like the promises they made to each other, their wedding vows.

"for better or for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, to love and to cherish; from this day forward until death do us part." 

I guess some promises are meant to be broken. The only thing they do is really "until death do us part" hahaha as in physically wise because divorce is too complicated a thing. Only their bodies are together in the same house whoop all the verbal abuse is so toxic what kind of soul mate is this. I wonder if my mum agreed to marriage just because her age was appropriate. I want children in my life and a nice warm family and all but I shall not grab any man from the street hahaha because I'll be destroying the lives of my kids and that is freaking selfish so yes single for life is even better than anything like that.

Done ranting about family issues I've no where else to rant at so I'm just ranting about them here as always.

我要买一个 ACOUSTIC 吉他

Not musically talented and all but I am really craving for some guitar hahahaha ownself play ownself shuang. AHHHHHHH MY HEAD KEEPS THINKING ABOUT $$$

Zao an! It's a Saturday again! Another brand new beginning (LOL I have many new beginnings) because I'm taking all Teacher YT's classes and my own classes this weekend I have officially joined the world of all the other MTs, I have reached my final destination. It is crazy how we look back and go like WTS I MADE IT LOL. Half amazing half unbelievable. Like how I thought I will die in Biz school but I am still breathing now. Amazing amazing.

Yesterday was Singles' Day 11/11 such a nice number I am a strong believer of 11:11 make-a-wish thing haha but sian Singles' Day shares the same numbers 11/11 too. Long time ago some peers used to ask me why the heck am I single and they made it sound like a sin and made me feel so bad about myself like I did sth wrong but then I realised hello why must I get so affected by others' opinions just live your life by your own will I'm gng to be accountable for my own happiness why make myself unhappy being affected by words? :D

Went over to KY's place to edit her assignment after work omg nostalgia much all the citation work and PDF readings LOL it was fun but only fun because it was just one. Wah rhymes. Haha if I put myself into a shoes of a year 4 it's gna be more than just one assignment so no more fun :-( Anw I feel so good about myself for contributing to the essay T.T Finally I can help out with something!!! But then that woman bought me drink and even bought my mum dinner and refused my $$... Siao one. And we made a promise to run a marathon tgt :> I don't believe in marathon's like dk what Hello Kitty Run/ Sundown though, when we pay to run and I have no idea where the $$ is going to. Maybe Yellow Ribbon or some other charity run will be better :-)

More about work- I AM SO GLAD MY BABIES DIDN'T CRY AT ALL THIS WEEK. I shall have my own personal record let's hope no babies cry today and tomorrow as well!!! And 11/11 = an epic sale on Taobao but I don't understand all the taobao thingy but it's okay because my friend at work does and therefore...

We
spent
a
grand
total
of

$500+
HUAT ARH!!! LOLOL I bought my whole lifetime worth of presents I am contented. But the $500 = sum of all of our buys so it should be okay! For Christmas this year I'm attempting to make a snowman out of balloon for my kids haha I already bought the long twisting ones. All I need is white balloons. Got special pump from taobao too hehehehe great I is very happy. Knees are currently wonky much oh no joint rub spam! Throat also dying but I cannot decline chilli and chocolate and chips so pipagao spam spam spam!

4 out of 4 - tick!

HARROW. It iz a Monday Morningz. I is a chirpy happy morning birdz. Just mopped the house nobody should misunderstand- I only do guai things once a week on Mondays/Tuesday. It's a bit stormy outside, prob gna rain soon aha just the right weather to be home :-D

Yesterday I had my First Year 2 class of the week at 10.20 I love happy Year 2s ahahaha no crying and all it was fun! Rewarded myself with happy food too haha chocolate waffles from bakery yum yum a very close substitute to Deck's! I also took over another Year 1 class at 2 yesterday because my poor colleagues are falling sick :-( The babies were restless though, not that fun. Maybe because new unfamiliar face too.

2 out of 4 - tick!

Friday's classes! SOLO LOMANTIC ROMANTIC TIME WITH MY INTERNATIONAL BABIES
1st class with Luna at 11.45 and 2nd class with Seeeun at 3.20

Babies are CUTE and tough at the same time because of their attention span. Luckily enough there are only 1 student each but ahhh in the future... MORE students. Cross fingers for luck.

3 out of 4 - tick!

Currently a Sunday morning and I woke at 5 (again) because aiya I crashed at idk 10? 9? Then as usual bro had to do everything for me (YAY burden) off lights, put back laptop etc hahaha. Yesterday was a record-breaking craziest teaching day for me! Five classes it was like a bullet train rushing from classroom to classroom, changing materials from Year 2 to Year 1 and to Year 0, really all chiong chiong chiong!

Initially I just had to sit in YT's 9am Year 2 class because I'm taking over it next week but ahhh the AT was late so in the end I became the AT lolol. And right after that was Year 1 class at 10.20 and it was a full class and it was YT's class but I took over which stresses me out because taking over these seniors' classes are scary. Comparison by parents = inevitable and comparison is the thief of joy but who cares I'm sure they are still going to compare anyway hahahaha because everybody does. Human nature. Thankfully it went alright. Then whoosh I had to rush back to my lion classroom to do my Year 0 11.45 class and oh noooo 2 out of 3 babies cried so badly because new environment new faces new everything. Their maids had to enter the class halfway because they seem to be closer to their maids than their mum/grandmother. (Something that I wish will not happen to me if I have a child next time haha) Thank goodness the class went okok too, except for the fact that they cried. Hopefully it gets better week by week! 3.20's Year 1 was good this week I loved it because Alphonsus was a happy baby hehe. He is so cute too cute la haiyo. New student too Alessie (?) and I don't know how to pronounce her name whoops. I asked mummy at the start of the class but I keep forgetting. Zoom zoom then it was preschool class at CR1! Chionged to change classroom again but it was all worth it because Carter is my love. C U T E cute and more cute.

Anyway my throat is breaking. And this is going to be a very common thing. I bought FOUR bottles of pipagao at Unity yesterday lol. My knee joint rub is running out, time to stock up too! I'm so happy because... MY "WEEKENDS" ARE CREEPING NEARER.

One day to go. LEGGO!!!

1 out of 4 - tick!

3rd Nov- Officially had my first two classes yesterday!!! -insert grand music-
Classes that I can really call MINE hehe since they are new classes so they are new student babies!

11.45's my first Year 0! Azalea!!!
Why my heart plop plop plop:
1. Boss sat in
2. Mummy AND Daddy and helper sat in too

To my huge delight Azalea smiles at me omg I LOVE it when babies can smile/laugh at things you do because sometimes it's so difficult to make them smile esp when she's just 7 months and I cannot bribe her with stickers/food that easily as I can with 2 year olds haha. And wooow her focus was great no cries no fidgeting just staring and absorbing it was so fun until
UNTIL
UNTIL
MY SUPERFLASH SUCKED
Big time. Worst than all other times I have no idea why were the cards so sticky T.T My last card always sticked with title card boooooo. Oh wells. On a positive note, that's the only thing boss pointed out, other than that it's ok phew. Azalea's mummy and daddy are so humble and nice and good-looking much. Mummy is so beautiful?!!!?!?!?!?! Haha anyway conclusion for the class: I'm happy but unhappy haiyo superflash pls be okay from now onwards please.

4.45's Year 1 with 4 new students (twin girls too) and 1 transfer student!
Oh my the twins are SO HAPPY and also very incredibly active hahaha they walk like zoom and laugh and smile and all super cute! That also means... I was DAMN LOUD hahaha in order for everyone to pay attention haha so at the end of the class my throat was dying. I now live on pipagao and strepsils all day all night. And joint rubs too. On a happy note yay super flash was much better this class hehe goot.

It's 6.53am now! 2nd out of 4 days to go~ I slept epicly at 10.30 and woke at 5.20 LOL drama watching now. May today be a happy day! :-)

#11

11th month of the year. I love 11. I truly believe with my whole heart in the 11:11 wish ahahha, since 11:11 is good for wishes, 11 month should be great too!

Time really flies. It's amazing how we look back and think, woah I didn't imagine myself to be in this, like this, at this time, in this place.
最终，我们还是走过来了。
我们都会走过来的。

Woke up early in the morning today. Like EARLY EARLY. Sun not up kinda early. Slept only about 5/6 hours but couldn't get back to sleep so whatever here I am! It's going to be a new challenging week because it's the new term! Which means... I'm starting my own classes.

AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Cross my fingers wish me luck tolong tolong please be a kind week!