Trying to get my life back on track. 

Been a week.  

Saturday felt really strange. A week's anniversary. Especially when the sky fell. It felt very very weird. A mixture of emptiness with pain, but also a reminder that you're really gone. 

Sunday was just plain T I R I N G. As always. Since I was absent the previous week... it was sweet when my Year 3s were happy to see me again.

Monday was spent meeting Claire over breakfast- love Yakun kaya toasts yum. Followed by a really long day trying to get my nephew to focus and study. I need to be better in handling his moodswings, to remind myself of his mental health and the fact that he's coping with a lot of things at one go. That he's only 8, of course he will choose anything over studying. But it seems like a trade off seesaw game, which is very tiring. If I choose relationship, I'll lose the authority to teach him properly haiz. As of now I'm honestly losing that hahaha. It's nice to hear things like "I like pearl jiejie" but that also means "I want you but I don't want tuition!!!" (imagine that in a tantrum voice) 

Brought two nephews out for Swensen's and arcade at NEX after a very tough 2.5hours of tuition. Javier threw a total of 4 to 5 tantrums in this whole entire journey. I had to reprimand him in public when we were waiting for the shuttle bus back because he hit the jackpot of my tolerance level haha. So I told him does this mean I should regret and never ever bring him out to play if he's going to be unreasonable like this? Then he got sulky and all, I won anyway because he said no. 

Jie if you are now an angel in heaven may you please bless me/us from above. May Javier still hold some respect for me as a teacher please. 

Tuesday was spent accompanying the bro to the doc and finally meeting my friendinlaw Ben and tze :) Awesome friendinlaw got me a very sweet gift from his exchange at HK. +1 point of approval for you Ben. Hahahaha. We traded gifts, HK and BKK. More to come in the future! 

Wednesday means today. Today means work. Work means a lot of mixed feelings. Thinking about OCT 2018. For now... bye-bye I shall go watch a drama.