I am standing on the train. 
A lady, around my mum's age, alights at Tampines. I got a tap on my shoulder. She asked me to sit down. I didn't since it's peak hour but her actions pasted a big smile on my big square face. 

Tuition was at Kimkim's place today. It has been seriously a long while since I went there since the funeral. Totally felt like crying half way through tuition because the image of jie coming home during tuition remains equally vivid. Or when I meet her halfway when I'm walking out. Or even when I do my weekly texts after tuition. Or even just her phone number in my contacts list. I can't bear to change the number as "Jasmine Jie" to "Javier". i am pathetic like that. Holding on to the final last traces of her in my phone. It also gives me a painful shock whenever Javier uses her phone to call me. I see "Jasmine Jie" calling. 

I guess since it has only been half a year. I took a while for grandmas,

This is going to take a while too.