Be fearless

Go for what makes your heart beats. 

Not in the love story sense but, in LIFE sense. 

Last week's classes were epic.
Sunday was so insane I knocked out at 10pm haha.

When I think of how Belvalynn screamed BYEBYE TEACHER PEARL across the whole corridor and how Alyssa came back to visit even though she withdrew last year, my heart breaks into a big big smile.

That's how they light up your life.

9.1.2018

I think this day deserves a post.

I got a place in a place that does well and does good.
I also started pondering about my long term goal in life.
It's stressful to know that I might be walking to nowhere. All I ever knew is I want to do good, but yesterday I figured I need to be more specific and clear and light up that unknown by myself.
A career is a big part of my life, I let it define me. I want a job that can make people smile. I don't want my days to pass a day by a day. I want to spring out of bed happily and in excitement and eventually be somebody who makes everybody feel like a somebody. At the same time, I love kids so I want to be working with children and impact their early years of education.
In the long run, I'll love to be my own decision maker and do my own thing but for now baby steps count and I'm so glad for this day.

I survived week one of 2018!

Back to kneeling and throat training classes, the feeling that yep reality is back hits me again haha, instantly, especially when my throat hurts and knees ache, once again. This year means a level up of shag because my babies progress to the next year of classes and that means level up in difficulty of classes. My kids are adorable though, they still give me the same big tight hugs I love and do all sorts of cute things that make my heart smile.

Zephan started singing the baby shark song when I asked him what's that marine creature. "Shark. Baby shark do do do do do" Elizabeth came to me in the middle of class wanting to sit on my lap. It was a week of happy babies and I'm glad they stuck with me for so long.

<3

Give it all, all the time.

December went by in a flash, I guess it felt exceptionally fast because of the 2 trips. It was tiring having to travel again the next day immediately after you land but it was so worth it :)

Last year 
I've been to really quite a few countries- Krabi with Buddy, BKK with PALT, Taiwan with HH, Taiwan again with bro, Cambodia with Shing, LX, Hua and Philippines with Buddy and Charissa. People always say travel and get lost and discover yourself etc but nope travelling solo to do self-discovery will never be my thing. I travel for purpose and for company and for memories.
I did my first and subsequently twice, crowd funding for Beong and they worked :O
I learnt sign language.
I did two dive trips but zero mountains.
I tried vain things like eyelash perming and I learnt a bit more about make up.
I got heavier but I got back my period.
I made deeper friendships with my colleagues-turned-friends but at the same time, I got into bad books. I figured this isn't what I really want.
I tried cmb twice with my friends and also went out (wts this deserves a massive pat on the back) and I finally concluded the whole thing isn't for me.
I see my dearest friends graduating and join me in the working world.
I lost a family. Having gone through the loss of two grandmothers made this feeling less foreign? But it's always the same. Like falling into a step of darkness and losing your balance and stopping time then and there. Before time starts to tick properly and you regain your footing and move on.

This year
I want to be a better, happier me.
I want people I love to be a better and happier version of themselves as well.

Moving onwards to the unknown, what's best is knowing that I was never alone and terribly blessed.